Sunday, October 10, 2010

Facing a cliff :

Hello to anyone who might be reading this (whom am i kidding?). My last entry was on April 17'th 2010. It has been 6 months since that day and reading every article is like swallowing a little time capsule. However, today i am not the typical nostalgic guy wondering about things gone by. Today, i am just a tired man. A person lost in a giant wave of thoughts, drowning in problems, and gasping for breath. It seems like just yesterday that i was a jobless person sitting at home pretending to study for some competitive exams, i never wanted to give. A LOT has changed since that. All those people i used to waste time with, they've changed, moved on ... moved far. In a passionate song sung by the legendary Jim Morrison, The End, he begins a new verse, singing : "... lost in a Roman ... wilderness of pain ... " I seems to be lost in it as well, and to be honest, i cannot go on any longer. I am operating at a bare minimum. It's like a Code Red. All hands on deck.


I cannot recall the last time i viewed the entire season of Manchester United play. I can not recall the last time i followed the transfer season. I cannot recall the last new metal song i headbanged to. I cannot recall the last time i saw a new movie. I cannot remember anything good i did. I cannot remember the last time i felt optimistic. I seem to be facing a cliff, pack of wolves on one side, and on the other side an infinite fall to the abyss below.

Its pretty new being this cornered in. Guess i HAVE to figure out a way all by myself.
"... the end of laughter and soft lies ... "

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Trippin' :

Okay, truth be told, i have mixed feelings about my trips. unlike most others, whom i know, who claim to have passive and relaxing trips, mine are not what you'd call a walk in the sunshine.
I switch gears. I become a mad scientist of sorts. i like to record conversations, not only for the fun of it, but for reference purposes. i make observations and continuously evaluate my peers.

despite all that, i mingle with them, i enjoy having hearty laughs, and i love laughing at the weird things others do. I am happy and yet i am tense and uptight. It is an intense experience the magnitude of which i cannot begin to explain.

But then a wise friend of mine said : "to each his own trip", and i leave it at that.

Happy tripping guys and (hopefully) gals.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Exams Over.


My Midsems just concluded, and hence i am back to banging on closed doors. Basically i am bored. A bored retard with no work is a danger to society ain't he? Well, i would like to fancy myself as a wannabe Joker / agent of chaos, BUT TRUTH BE TOLD, I AM JUST A STUPID PRICK.

Cheers. ;)

Monday, March 22, 2010

Fuck You Liverpool :

Yesterday, Liverpool were defeated by two goals to one by Manchester United at Old Trafford.
Here's to all those Liverpool fans out there who were assuming another "league double" over United.
Fuck you, Liverpool. Fuck you scousers, and fuck all those critics.
A well deserved win.
Glory Glory ManUnited ... As the Reds Go Marching ON ON ON !!!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Midnight oil :

It's 1:30 in the morning, and i am thoroughly fatigued. Yet, it amazes my, the will of humans to put up with hardship just to get what they want. In my case : FAST INTERNET.

Cheers, got me some "movies" to download.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Cheers :


This post is dedicated to my most closest and awesomest friend Rohit P K Saha, who has been informally placed in a shipping giant.

Despite going through shite in his life, and all facing a pedestrian mob alone, he has fought valiantly to get to where he is.

I can only hope of replicating this feat, but as of now, i am happy for him and wish him all the very best in the future.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

FUCKED !

The title is self explanatory really. I lost my iPod, entire 160 GB's of it. I hate myself and want to die.
Cheers.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Oye First Year!!

My university is the type of place where you wake up in the morning go to the washroom, look at yourself in the mirror , eyes puffing out or caving in and say : "You look like shit man!" Other times you just wanna stretch your arms and shout "motherfucker"!

An average day begins with a sense of hope that today will indeed be an average day. You brush up, take a leak, and then unlike anything that goes on in average hostels, you go off to run 2-3 Kms and do some of them push-ups. You wish that even this goes like just another day, but it never is. there's always someone punished, sometimes yourself, sometimes there's a manhunt for a missing person (probably snuggling in his cozy and warm bed unaware of the cruel punishments awaiting him, then there's always the occasional fainting dude. Just when you think it's all going according to plan, the retarded crowd begins to shout and howl. Frog jump your way on an Olympic sized athletics track. Jesus M. F. Christ.

After that ordeal, you feel like you have been violated. Raped. Off we go to our rooms, take a dump, and then hopefully a bath (I still like to believe in the sense of hygiene of an average college kid). then you are off to college.

Uniforms checked, push-ups (for the gravy stain or the occasional blade of hair surviving the holocaust) done, we begin studies. Teacher after teacher, lecture after lecture, you go on and on, relieved by the lunch break, only to have to haul our arses back for two more lectures in the hot afternoon sun.

class dismissed, school's out. I come back to my room, unlock the door, and shout : "Honey i am home" at the imaginary sex slave i keep locked in there. 1645 Hrs. to 1930 Hrs. is time to kill, use or whatever other defiling and derogatory stuff we are advised to do with it.

That done, it's dinner time soon followed by the muster, the uniform check and all that shit. Again the occasional death threat because of the gravy stain, and then it's bedtime.

Hope ... hope that tomorrow will be just and average day.
Cheers.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Fresh and withered :

It had been five minutes since since i entered the campus gates that i began to despise the place. As i was unpacking, i smelt something weird, because i recall cleaning my room thoroughly before leaving. Well, it seems my room had been a suitable dining table for a rat. The bugger had entered through the gap in between the room door and the floor, and had brought with it a tasty meal for itself. Yes, i found several feathers flying out from the place. I guessed the obvious. I started looking ion places and then i saw it. Underneath the almirah was a dead sparrow carcass. I took two brooms and shoved it out of my room. The stench disappeared gradually. Then gradually all the people started flooding in at various time intervals. Its not the place that i hate. I love the routine, the PT the fingering at the hands of seniors and the staff alike, but i cannot stand the people here. Some of them are just so annoying it gets to you. So much for rest and relaxation. Squeaky bum time relapse.
Cheers.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

New Title New Self


Been a while since i have updated. But i guess that is the story of my life, its always been a while.
Anyways, here i am all retarded and pervy and all. Please feast your eyes on this mind numbimgly, heartbreakingly silly pic of mine at a beach in Goa and try to be calm and sane.